I feel uninspiring lately, I don't know what happen, why and how to solve this feeling.
Given where I came from in my career I feel like I already achive big win or already successful.
When I look at my bank account the number I never thought that I can make that amount of money.
But there also some feeling that I just don't understand. I feel like I want to make more money but at the same time I don't know if I need more money and sometime I don't like more money.
The good news is that I have been publishing my work to internet since 8 years ago so this is good for AI to learn more about me and help me understand me.
So this is my conversation with ChatGPT and somehow it is giving me some clarity in my life.
Why am I feeling Uninspiring?
I started with this prompt.
Analyze ahmadrosid.com you can learn about me from there.
Then I just say.
I feel uninspiring.
And this is the interesting reply from the AI.
- You’ve normalized your own growth
- You’re output-heavy, signal-light
- You might be living slightly below your edge
- You’re comparing internals to others’ externals
Inspiration is not a personality trait. It’s a byproduct of alignment.
You don’t become inspiring by trying harder. You become inspiring when what you do:
- slightly scares you
- feels personally honest
- costs you something real
Right now, it sounds like you’re very good at what you do, but not fully emotionally invested in how you’re showing up.
When I look back this is exactly what happen to me.
What happen to me, the growth the achievement is not normal, the way I get there too.
I create, ship, teach — but:
- Did I feel seen for it?
- Did I hear real stories of impact?
- Did I feel surprised by yourself anymore?
Inspiration often comes from feedback loops, not productivity.
Alignment
The ChatGPT give me a lot of texts output but one of the word that hit me is "Alignment".
So I ask this to chatgpt.
talk to me more about alignment
Alignment is quieter than motivation and deeper than discipline. It’s not a feeling you chase — it’s a state you notice when resistance disappears.
What alignment actually is
Alignment = when your actions, values, and energy point in the same direction.
You don’t feel hyped. You feel clear.
When aligned:
- effort feels justified
- rest feels earned
- money feels clean
- decisions feel simpler
When misaligned:
- you’re productive but restless
- you escape more
- everything feels heavier than it should
OMG yes this is it. But I ask again.
what is this i feel
- not productive and also restless
- i feell like don't deserve rest
- making decision is hard
- i escape more
- life feels heavier
What you’re describing is a very specific internal state. It has a name — not a clinical one, but a useful one.
You are experiencing misalignment fatigue.
Not burnout. Not laziness. Not depression.
What this state actually is
It’s the state that appears when:
- you keep functioning
- while suppressing or postponing a deeper realignment
Your system is doing two opposing jobs at once:
- Maintain the current life
- Signal that something no longer fits
That tension produces the symptoms you listed.
It's fun
The conversation very insgithful and fun and I want to do it more and more. But everything feels personal so I think I don't need to share it all here. But what I am trying to say in this blog post is that I think you should try to do this.
Tell your feeling to AI give the AI all the data you have so that the AI can do the analysis know exactly what you are what your state this will give you a lot of clarity in life.
Thank me later 👋.